You know the feeling of wanting to do something and do it right? That feeling when you decide to put your time and energy into learning something new, but you feel like you’re getting no where? Or what about when you hit that imaginary “wall” where you start to think, “Maybe I was crazy for thinking I could do this.” You may back off or even give up.
And just when you think you’ll never figure it out, you suddenly realize, “I’m doing it!” You may shout it out, jump up and down or tell anyone who will listen!
You. Are. Doing. It.
Somewhere between the practicing and planning, the frustration and anxiety, you mastered the skill and didn’t even realize it.
Just like when you learned to ride a bike. You may have fallen a few times, but when you finally did it on your own for more than a few feet AND you realized your parent/teacher let go, this insane feeling of ecstasy washes over your body. You can’t stop smiling and you want everyone to know that despite all the struggle to get there, YOU ARE DOING IT!
That’s kind of what I am feeling as I come to the end of this Canadian 3 week adventure I’ve been on.
I wanted to be an adventurer.
I wanted to explore my wanderlust.
I wanted to just “go” and see where it took me.
And….I wanted to do it all on my own, but I was scared.
I can’t tell you how many people second guessed my crazy ideas (which often made me second guess my own motives and desires) or how times I heard, “Be careful” (which I did appreciate). Buuuuuuuuut I did it anyway.
I discovered that sometimes it’s ok to be selfish. Specifically, I disovered the amazingness of traveling independently and doing things that make ME happy.
I discovered what it feels like to listen and go with “Your gut instinct”.
I discovered that my instincts can sometimes be considered lucky.
I discovered what it means to have a “tent family”.
I discovered that a lot of time and energy goes into making big events happen and I was privileged to be a part of that time and energy thing.
I discovered that you can have fun and dance carefree at music festivals without any drugs or alcohol.
I discovered that sometimes people just want to have fun and though it seems silly, when you let go, it can be fun for you too!
I discovered that there is a Hawaii in Canada and it goes by the name of Nainamo.
I discovered what it feels like when you let go and just trust the unknown.
I discovered what it feels like to be above a crowd.
I discovered that when something is supposed to happen, all the pieces end up fitting perfectly together creating something more beautiful than you could have ever imagined in the first place.
I discovered what it feels like to put all of your trust into a complete stranger.
I discovered what it feels like to look fear in the face and conquer it.
I discovered that the people on the West Coast are AWESOME!
I discovered that I’m right on time for the path I’m supposed to be on and I have no intentions of looking back.
All in all, I couldn’t have asked for a better way to end this summer of “me” and self-discovery. I set out with the intention of getting to know myself, learning how to make my own decisions based on what makes ME happy, and pushing myself out of my comfort zone.
I don’t want to boast, but I feel that I succeeded! Scratch that, I am proud to say that I was successful!
Though getting back into a daily routine is bogging me down, adventure can be anywhere! I look forward to finding those hidden gems and will keep you posted along the way!